Well, I really never had felt so empty before. I seriously hate myself a lot. I just cannot keep my heart solid. Why does it have to sway with every good deed done to me? I just hate to be weak, but whenever I try to stand strong, someone or something just has to push me down to where i started from, again and again. My wounds from all these falls have yet to be healed, and more add on. I sincerely had enough of all these. I just wish someone could listen to me and understands me...Then tell me what should I do. I really have no idea what is the next step that I should take. I really need suggestions and opinions, not judgments and mockeries.  Is there anyone out there? I am calling out to you...waiting...